This is a child that did not feel the need to come. I was frustrated in the weeks before her birth because I had no indications of labor. I mean like none at all! I wasn't dilating, I wasn't effacing and the contractions were few and far between. Because so little was happening my doctor was unwilling to do anything (i.e. induce me if I went over my due date.) Fortunately, one day after the due date I had a bunch of contractions and I finally dilated to a one. We scheduled an inducement for the 23rd of June and my mom came out on the 22nd to take care of Calvin. The hospital called in the morning and we arrived about 10-ish in the morning.
They put me on the pit drip and checked to find me at a three! Woop woop! I think that I was probably headed into labor soon with or without the pitocin. After awhile the doctor came in and broke my water. That's when things really picked up. I had decided to try natural birth, but my contractions were really painful at this point - I was ready to cry. I decided to wimp out and I called for the anesthesiologist. He came right in and started to get me ready for an epidural, but as he was doing that I started to push! In pain and very stupid I let him him put in the epidural as I tried to hold back the pushing. I was shaking uncontrollably, and as I look back I am really grateful that the anesthesiologist was good enough to get me without hurting me.
The moment it was in I rolled over, they took the bed apart for delivery and two pushes later there was a screaming head and then a baby was born. Boy did she yell! I knew that child was alright from the start - you could hear it = ). So, I got an epidural, but I am not sure how much it helped! Actually, the pushing hurt less than the contractions before - I should have waited. I felt an awful lot of childbirth and then I still had to work off the effects of the drugs. Next time maybe my brain won't poop out at the last second.
Calvin was very excited to meet his new baby. I was glad to see how thrilled he was at the hospital. It has been really hard for him, but I know that he loves this little girl. I just wish that I could spend more one on one time with him right now, he misses it so much.
Congratulations! She is adorable. I agree, cut yourself some slack. I felt like I was totally ignoring McKenzie those first few weeks and I felt guilty, but it got better. (Now I just ignore them both to keep it even! Just kidding.) Can't wait to meet Maddie at the next crazy family gathering! :o)
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